Dearest Emily

I have met so many great families on the cancer floor. The children there are amazing. Each one is so unique and special. They have hearts of gold and put up a fight of a lifetime to save themselves from this disgusting disease. Some make it and some do not. That is the reality of it. Up until June 16th I had only heard about the tragedy of that floor, unfortunately on this day I experienced it. A 14 year old girl by the name of Emily had passed away in the room right across from sadies. We had seen her weeks prior receiving a routine chemo treatment. She appeared to be okay. I later discovered that she never left the hospital from the date of our last admission to our most recent one. She had a siezure that put her in a coma that she never came out of. She was alive for only a short time when we got there but for the day and a half that she was I prayed like hell she would pull out of it. She didn't. After she passed I saw her grandma in the hall and gave her a huge hug. I didn't say much cause there was nothing I could say to diminish the pain. Her grandma then asked me If I wanted to meet her Emily. I walked in the room and there she was. So lifeless but so at peace. I learned alot about her from her family that day. What an amazing young woman. She only had two weeks left of treatment and then she was done. God claimed her life instead. So.... Dearest Emily, what a beautiful angel you must have become. I pray for your soul and peace for your family. You are loved and missed by many...... It is days like these that I could do without. Feelings like these that will forever haunt my heart, and fears like this no mother should have. FUCK YOU CANCER. I HATE YOU!!!!!