Rapunzel's got nothin on Sadie

Other than sadie being sick, her losing her hair was a big issue for me.  Not because I cared what she looked like, but I worried about how she would handle it and view herself.  Sadie is a huge fan of all the disney princesses, especially Rapunzel.  She has always loved her long pretty hair and wished that hers looked the same. She would sit at her vanity or whoever elses vanity for that matter, and fix her hair or put on make-up, or just stare at herself lol.  I didnt know how to break this to her.  No mother wants her daughter to be without hair, but I personally do not care what she looks like as long as I have her to look at.  This devastated me for her.  Sadies hair took forever to grow, and the only cut we ever did on her was a trim around her eyes.  I didnt know that the first lock of hair I would save from her first cut would be because of cancer.  A couple weeks into our first 30 day stay at the hospital, I cut it.  Not all the way off, but half way to off.  I did this for two reasons, one because I wanted her to gradually see it gone, and two because I wanted to take her hair, not fucking cancer drugs.  Shortly after we got home from our initial 30 day stay, I shaved it.  I felt like I had to.  It was super thin and falling out, so I thought shaving it would be less dramatic then her seeing it coming out.  I explained to her that the medicines she had to take to kill her cancer bugs, would make her hair fall out, but that it would grow back.  She would grab her hair and say no.  She was so upset.  My sis and all of sadies cousins, especially her girl cousin shaving thier heads helped tremendously.  It then became a good thing and the cool thing to do. They sent pictures, and took video of them getting their heads shaved.  This is when she let me shave it.  I let her make that decision on her own.  I wasnt as ballsy as my sis to shave my head, but I did cut most of it off.  Sadie tells me all the time that she misses my long hair, and my only response to her is that I cant wait to grow ours out together.  Sadie has grown very fond of her bald head.  In the beginning, she was a little self concious about it and would ask questions like: Mommy do you like my bald head?? Do you like to touch it?? Do you wanna touch it??  Is it so pretty??  It was like she was seeking reassurance.  Of course I really do like it, and I think she is the most beautiful girl in the whole world.  Hair, no hair, gray hair, I love her anyway I can have her.  And yes sadie girl, I love touching your bald head.  Who needs Rapunzel when I can have you.