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As my first post I would like to say that this blog is a journey into my mind as a mother. It is how I deal with the cancer that stares back at me everyday when I look at my beautiful baby girl. It is how I keep from giving in to the insanity that calls out to me on a daily basis. Somedays it's gonna be sad, and other days my readers will think I have completely lost my mind. I have learned that dealing with a child that has cancer has a whole list of emotions that would be better left unsaid and kept to oneself, but I will freely express all of those here and I will not hold back. For those of you that choose to follow me on this journey, I thank you for your support, and to those of you that choose to not, I hold no grudge. I would not wish this experience on my worst enemy and if I had the choice, I would not wish to read about it either. So.... to all of you on board this emotional roller coaster through my eyes, into the depths of my heart and soul and into my mind, I thank you again for sharing this road of heartache, anger, saddness, pain, hope, love, prayer, and one hell of a fight ahead.
Keep your head up girl, god will lead the way. As long as I have known you, you have been such a strong person and that is what you need now more than ever. When I heard the news with Sadie I wanted to run and hug you and tell you I'm here for any reason you may need me. I know we lost touch so many years ago but there was never a day that past that I didn't miss our friendship. Always remember you are not insane or crazy you are a mother trying to get through each day with a child that has cancer this is not easy to except but something you have to hold your head high and say cancer we will beat you, you will NOT beat us. You seem to have so much support behind you Jess that with prayers and support you can fight it. And if you ever feel like you just can't take it remember you can. You look this in the eye and say Sadie is to strong to be down. And I can only imagine how many times a day u may be down. I could not imagine how u feel. If for one day I could take your pain away I would. Always remember no matter how far apart we have been I love you and will help you through anything you let me. Rather it's your own problem or Sadie. You know my number and where I live. I don't care if it's one in the morning and u can't sleep and just want to talk about movie u may have watched or u just want to cry call me, or knock on my door I'm serious and Sadie is in gods hands and he will heal her I know he will... :)
ReplyDeleteJess you are such a strong woman and mother. I have not known you very long but through all if this I have gotten to know you a little more. although we are not technically family by blood we are still family. my family and I are here for you guys through this whole journey. we pray for Sadie everyday and know that she is strong enough to pull through this. with all of the love and support she has behind her she will beat this. We love you guys and you know that we are here for you no matter what it is or how small of a task it may be you and mikey can always count on us! I will be following your journey on here also!
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ReplyDeleteI would never had imagined that this could happen to Sadie. She is so strong and has so much to offer the world. Cancer has shaped her future in so many ways. What she has went through and will still face are mind boggling. Sometimes things just happen by chance. It's hard not to be mad at God. I don't think it is punishment or cruelty on his part. We are just dealt a bad hand. We have to remember the good things in life. I know that is hard right now. Most parents never face anything as horrible as this. You have been given an insight into a nightmare most of is only fear. You will never view life or your daughter the same way ever. This has made you a strong determined woman. Have faith in yourself and Sadie. I love you both so much it hurts. I have my positive days and those days I feel lost. Be brave like Sadie Girl. That's how I get through each day.
Hey beautiful! Love the blog page. Four months ago when we started this journey I thanked God Sadie had you to be by her side to get her through this. Knowing your dedication to her and your determination to figure this out and beat it was very comforting. Your an awsome person and even better mom jess. Don't lose sight of that no matter how hard this becomes. The pain the anger, frustration, doubt, heartache, and sadness are all things I and many wish we could take from u on a daily basis. Since we can't know that you are not alone. You have so many here to lift you up in any way we can. Don't lose faith in God and his plan whatever that may be. The answers to why Sadie or any child may never be answered but you yourself believe in everything happens for a reason. God will carry her and guide us through this I believe in that. Jess I know we've had our fair share of unpleasant times but believe me when I say I've got your back and you have my hand through this and at the end of this long road ahead trust that I will be right there next to you both ready to thank God and have that big party for our babygirl. Stay positive stay hopeful stay strong. I love you both so much.
ReplyDeleteDearest Sadie and Family, I watched ur friend Lee go thru cancer and God took him. Now he is watching over you and our family is praying for ur family and a cure for ur nasty cancer. Take day by day because u have a strong mommy, daddy, grandparents, and extended family. God will heal u,and make u stronger than ever. god bless
ReplyDeleteHi this is Ty I just hope Sadie gets better as we come further in life some things don't pass but others do my love and com passion will never go away for my aunt Jess and Sadie girl as long as I lovey will never for not even a second not hope for all of u so keep on living life to the fullest as long as u live
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