The Jones's

Most people claim that there famalies are crazy, but mine really is.  If we could have a reality show, it would be a huge hit.  I cant complain too much though cause despite our differences, they are there when I really need them.  Before this happened with sadie, I wasnt on very good talking terms with the majority of them, but we all came together as a family should. I have made some, what other people would call "poor choices", but to each their own I believe.  I have learned that I have to live my life the way I choose and not how others want me to live it.  No two people are the same, so therfore my beliefs and how I live my life is almost always gonna be different than the person standing next to me.  Individuality is a gift from god to us all, and how we embrace that is at our own discretion.  The depths of this conversation and what I am referring to is for another day, so....... moving on........When sadie was diagnosed, my sister Shawnna had just concieved her 4th child. I didnt know this, for she did not want to tell me.  I wasnt supposed to have chldren, and the miracle that God did bless me with is now facing cancer, so I understand why she felt this way but I dont want her to. I want her to know that I am so happy for her and I cant wait to hold that little baby girl in my arms.  I am an aunt six times, almost seven and I love it.  I have 4 nephews and 2 nieces with one on the way.  I would die for any one of my sisters kids, and I know they would do the same for Sadie.  My oldest niece maddie really struggles with whats going on with sadie.  All of them do, but she especially has a hard time with it.  Even long before sadie was diagnosed, maddie was sending in her allowence and writing letters to places like St. Jude to help fight childhood cancer.  How ironic is that????  Her heart is huge!!!!!!!  She is only a child herself, but she understands it and for her to be faced with it through her baby cousin eats her up everyday.  Sadie doesnt see her cousins much anymore cause she has no immune system what-so-ever.  She has maybe seen them twice since she was diagnosed, but her heart is always with them.  She loves them all so much.  Everyone of them shaved there heads for little sadie girl, even my sister.  My family is so bad ass.  Cancer has truly changed our lives, and i know that everyone of them is struggling to get through this with me.  The mere mention of sadies name breaks them down in ways they never thought possible.  To you all, sadie has our blood and she will not go down without a fight.